diary of an unplanned life: another lost girl

Monday, June 20, 2005

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  • At 6/21/2005 03:33:00 PM, Blogger mama1973 said…

    I am going to pray for you tonight while my kids and I are praying the rosary.....I stumbled on your site....God Bless and keep you....ask for forgiveness and God WILL hear you....trust me...:(it's a long journey to forgiveness,but keep the course,it's worth it....

  • At 6/21/2005 05:21:00 PM, Blogger Annie said…

    Hey, girl, I know I don't know you, but my heart hurts for you and wishes I could give you some words to encourage you. There's a lot of women out there reading your story, who give a damn, since we've made a lot of mistakes ourselves, too. One of my friends is having trouble commenting since she doesn't have a blog of her own, so she asked me to post this for her. Here goes:

    "Please, please let someone love you just one more time. There are people at your local ministry who are waiting for you right now. They specifically help women who have addictions and no money. They already love you, you just have to go to them and let them help you. You can have a happier life, even if you can't see it right now. It'll take some hard work, but I believe in you. Don't be afraid. Let them show you a kind of love you haven't seen before. Know that I love you and am praying for you right now.

    What she means by ministry is there are people who can help you, no judgment, no bible thumping, no trying to make you religious, not condemning you, but can help you with a place to live, andto kick the addiction, and to get job skills and stuff to help you get a better job where you don't have to do the stuff that you know makes you feel bad and gets you tempted to be in trouble, and can even help you marriage-wise if you want to stay with your hubby.

    One place that can tell you where such helpers are in your area is Optionline.org. You can also call them toll free at 1-800-395-HELP, or IM or email them too: http://optionline.org/contact.html I know it looks like the pregnancy center people, but most times those same places help women after they decide to have the abortion too. They do both. And they do it all for free and confidentially.

    Please don't give up, pls. call them and ask them for ALL the numbers of all the places offering this free help in your area. And just keep calling till you get thru.

    I was lost too, once. A lot of us were. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. You probably feel like you are, but there are thousands, maybe hundreds of thousands of us who've been through what you're going through, to some degree or another.

    You deserve better than lowlife A___, and doing dope, and dancing for asshole guys who should be home with their wives. Brandy's right, he isn't worth wasting your time with. If he really cared, he wouldn't have been such a dick about the abortion and everything. But you are worthso much more than this life is offering you now. Do not let A____ win by ending your life, please. Don't let him win.

    They say that finding happiness is the best revenge. WE know that you can find it, you can find some caring people at those place to help you through this, all confidentially. I have friends who go out there to women even before they have the ab. and help them avoid it and get a new job and place to live and stuff. I am sorry that people like my friends weren't there when you went for your ab.

    I had mine 26 years ago. They weren't there for me either, then. I know only that I regret it every day now. I'll never have a daughter now. She was my only one.

    But I found help for my pain. You can too. Don't let A__ destroy you, honey, pls.

    There's a funny saying in Latin that works here:
    "Illegitamus non carbordundum est."

    It means, "Don't let the bastards run you down!" And A___ is a bastard. The hell with him.

    Pls. do let us know what's going on with you and if the ideas we've offered are helping or NOT. We want to hear from you. We know you feel lost, we don't want you to feel like that. All because we know how bad it feels, and how good it feels to be found again.

    Yeah, pls. answer us on your blog, OK? I'll post this on the later comments too, in case you're not checking back to this post...
    Hang in there, please, let us know...
    Annie B.

  • At 6/21/2005 05:22:00 PM, Blogger Annie said…

    arrggh, the link to that webpage I just gave youdidn't come through;


  • At 12/19/2005 04:41:00 PM, Blogger courtney said…

    if you don't mind talking to me what was your life like growing up?
    and how old are you you sound very young and look it I am 26 years old I also sound young but I have 4 kids to wich makes me feel old but their great. I feel for you and the hard times.
    but life gose on but for giving your self is a big one.
    if you would like to talk I get pritty bord some times I stay at home a lot with my kids husbend works and duse other things so I feel lonly some times and try to find things to keep me bizzy so if you want to talk you can email me at cork20012001@hotmail.com


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